Gong Xi Fa Cai!

Gong Xi Fa Cai!

Wishing everyone to have a prosperous year ahead!

Well, this year Chinese New Year doesn't treat us too well.
Just right on the Reunion Dinner Day....dad was not well and admitted due to some infections.

It's weird and feeling awkward without him with us during the reunion dinner. and it doesn't make us feel any better/comfortable. Everyone is worrying. Including himself.
Temperature spikes and shivering makes him really uncomfortable.
Not to mention the pain on the wound.

Seeing him lying there...with few episodes of pain...it makes me feel regret. For not taking good care of him. For not spending much time at home with him. For not sharing all the feelings I have with him. etc etc.

First day of CNY and he's spending his day hospitalized.
But now seeing him getting much much better and talking loudly as before, at least temporarily relieved.
May God blessed him with good health and good luck in everything. Rest well and get well soon.


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Sometimes,
I feel bad for not picking up someone's phone calls.
But,
if you understand the conditions,
I guess,
not picking up the phone and not answering anything,
is the best solution.

Sorry for those who called and I didn't pick up.
Sorry for avoiding your calls.
Sorry for not involving myself in this complicated situations.
Sorry for not having much time to get involved in your family matters.
Sorry for not helping in getting 'someone' to see you all.
Sorry for not doing anything, not a tiny bit to help in encouraging that 'someone' to talk to you all.

Why I keep saying sorry?
I don't know.
I just feel bad but I can't help.

Please, do not involve my family in helping you.
Please, do not involve me in helping you.
Please, do not expect me to answer your phone calls anytime, anywhere.
Please, do not message me and expecting me to give you the answer whereby you know for sure that 'someone' doesn't like you to do this.
Please, do not let your anger overcome the problems.
Please, do not mess with me.
Please, do not act like there's nothing happen and expecting me to respect you as before for what you have done, although not to me.

I've made myself very clear.
Please do not disturb my ordinary life.
because, whenever I received unknown calls, I know nagging will happen and I can't help and it makes me feel bad.

So, Please,
Leave me alone.

Thank you for your co-operation.

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