Finally...

First,no matter what happen...i need to rejoice myself~~~
YEAY~~
i've passed my pendadaran.

Next,time to think back.
Although i pass my pendadaran,but is not with flying colours.It makes me looks like i'm not well prepared.well,or i shud say not prepare at all even the draft have lots of mistakes to correct...
I thought i might fail...Thanks to my dosen,they helped me a lot.i know.
or else,i'd juz have to repeat the exam all over again.
Thank you so much!!!

Third,
Now,i need a good rest.To recharge energy so that I can turn my draft to a better ones.To assure me to get an 'A' for my thesis open exam. *finger crossed*
I've been told that i had to totally revise all my thesis...from the beginning till the end to correct everything.It's a mess.
Re-arrange,Re-do,Re-draw the graphs,tables.etc.
At that time,i felt ashamed.why cant i do it better before i head for the exam or even before i can sit for the exam?
maybe i dont know how.
I need advices.
I need someone to help me out to make things right.
I somehow kind of blaming my dosen.
But today,i knew,if they didnt correct me,i wont make it better and i'll just leave it and never know how to do a proper thesis.

Last but not least,
I shud wrapped up the mess and head for a brighter future!
which is do all the corrections fast and perfect or at least good enough to earn myself an 'A'!

I want to get it for what i'm worth.Not the sympathy they gave to me.

~This is why I smile~

he made me smile and made my Day a better ones~
muahxx

tired

tired.
tired of waiting
tired of being alone
tired of missing home
tired of studying thesis
tired of doing anything im not so into

i'm bored!

finally it's 4 days to go until my exam.
im nervous.
im scared.
im worried.
im tired.
im being negative.

i need motivation!
i need to believe i can do it well.
i need to know that i'm sure will pass!!
i need to know so many things that i dun rily know.

stay away from family for so long will make u go crazy.
trust me.
always keep ur head in these study thing will definitely makes u go nuts!

keep thinking...
when can i go back?
when can i pass my exams?
when can i finish study?
when can i start earning my own money?
when can i do this?
when can i do that?

ok.i've gone way too far.

FOCUS!!

*this is what i do whenever im too nervous and too afraid and tooooo worried!!*


=N=

countdown to 5 days

well,
another 5 days to go till my presentation for my skripsi..
pretty scary...but the nervous-ness has been cooling down,kind of no mood to do it as i've waited long enough..for a month!! juz to arrange the time n place...exhausted already.

what to study?
about my skripsi? i wrote it of coz with references.but then im lost myself.
most of my friends told me to study on the method part...mine was pretty simple...so i guess it wouldnt be a big problem...
im juz worried bout the hasil ...
somehow i juz tot i did crap alot..but then who knows what might turn out to be better later on?

please include me in ur prayers for success,if u're reading my blog.
~thanks~

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till then,
i've submit online application for SPA interview...
those papers are still with me and not post nor fax yet.
will do it later on.
hopefully get to place an interview earlier...
hate to wait actually...
so i can work earlier and earn money!!!
yes,i'm money lover. =)

Lots of plans,but not much time!

please...faster finish and get out of this place.
i wanna go back to home sweet home~

Patience

i've been waiting for almost one whole month to set the date for my pendadaran(thesis exam).
set the date, change the date,then set the date again, then change the date again.
again and again.it makes me worried more and more.
when can i finish off earlier and go back to my home sweet home?
when can the date set and no changes made after that?
i cant take it anymore.
all these things are driving me crazy.
i'm taking all these at my own pace.
i want it to be done fast.but i cant.it juz not only depends on me.
arghh!!!
i juz hope that things or my future pathway will be more smooth than wat i'm going thru now.
i know it's not the worst yet, but i juz cant take it anymore.
the longer it takes,the more stressful i get.

'm not blaming anyone,but then it's juz tough.or i shud say,it's juz not my day or im not having any luck for this?
i wonder.

please,please,please!!
i wanna go back home earlier,so lets get it done earlier k?
date set on 30th july,then when's my open seminar?? another weeks to keep waiting again?? ohno...dun wanna think anymore..
it's juz so pathetic.

one day countdown to the 10th

10th July

my B's big day.
nothing much but dedicated this to you.my love.if you happened to browse thru my blog.*wink*

How do I love thee?
Let me count the ways.

I love thee to the depth
and breadth
and height
My soul can reach,
when feeling out of sight.
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of everyday's
Most quiet need.
by sun and candlelight.
I love thee freely,
as men strive for Right.
I love thee purely,
as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with the passion,
put to use in my old griefs,
and with my childhood's faith.

I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saint's
--I love thee with the breath, Smiles, Tears
of all my life!
--and If God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.


By Elizabeth Barrett Browning.


Happy birthday in advance and I'm so lucky to have u!God must loves me loads. =)

bad day

purse got stolen.
great.
and i din notice until i actually sat down to wait for my lecturer.
dammit.
driving licence n atm cards gone.
luckily no money left.i was damm broke before i go to get my allowance from atm.
thank god for that.

from now onwards..no bus for me.a big NO NO!

i hate to go to the police n file a report for the lost.
sigh.
got so much to do at this time and bad things happen.
i want to out of this place.

another month to go.
i shall wait.

*to the one who picked pocket me: i believe in karma. make sure u do good for the rest of ur life.Get a proper job! not being a thief!!!!!!!!!!!!!!